I sat in an exit interview today and when I had finished saying what honor required, I was asked to rescind my resignation and remain with the bank in a position outside of the situation that I left. I was told that I was needed. It is nice to be valued and appreciated. It also feels good to be going back to work next week. I dislike being a “quitter” and I need to work.
So what was all of this for? Was it all a waste of time if I am simply going back? No. It was not a waste. It was one of the most important learning experiences I have ever had. I learned things that I would never have learned unless I had experienced these past few weeks.
I learned to respect my own gifts and talents and to access my own strength and light. I learned to listen to my inner voice, instincts and intuitions, and to act on them. I learned to trust in my own wisdom and hard work. I learned to really look at the rules that I live my life by and recognize where they come from and let go of the ones that do not come from my own inner truth. I learned to sit with the unknown, with no plan, and not panic.
Each step of the way I learned things that, if I had not taken each step, I could not have learned. Some things have to be experienced. Sometimes it is necessary to step off the path and take a side trip even if it seems to lead nowhere, to “a place that is not a place and a time that is not a time” even if you need to return to the path exactly where you left it. It may seem that you have gained no ground and that you have only wasted time but that is not the case. You return to the path with clearer sight, better understanding and sometimes even happier circumstances. It has cost you time but, what you have gained is of greater value than what you have sacrificed.
I am amazed and grateful for the side trip and for the lessons. I am also grateful for the opportunity to go forward and to get back to work. And for the freedom from fear that those lessons have provided to me. I Give Thanks.