Twenty-one years ago, when I began this journey and began meeting the Gods and building relationships with them, I learned the story of Freyja-Vanadis, the Vanir Goddess of love, sex, beauty, war, death and magick who lived with the Aesir and learned the Runes from Odin and in return taught Seidr to the All-Father. At that time, and for years after, I made petition to Her to work with me, but the Lady was silent.
I have always believed that She heard me and that Her silence was Her answer…I was not ready. It was not that I was unsuitable, or that I was unworthy…I was simply not ready to learn the lessons that she would teach me. I had work to do, other lessons to learn, skills to develop, before I could understand or effectively practice the magick that she had to teach me.
I attended the Conjure Dance at Sacred Space/Between the Worlds Conference a couple of weeks ago and, this year I was successful in opening enough to enter trance and converse with the Gods.
I spoke with and heard the voices of Beloved Deities with whom I have had relationships for years. It was profoundly moving and I am grateful that the work that I have done in this past year was successful. It was something that I have spent a great deal of energy and focus on and it meant a great deal to me to discover that I am indeed capable of opening enough, and to do so in the presence of other human beings.
But the most surprising voice was that of the Lady. Freyja-Vanadis spoke to me. And what She said to me was this,
“Now, you are ready”.
And so I am once again building a new relationship with the Goddess. She has already brought many new experiences and insights, new friendships and new perspectives, a new understanding of my Self and of my work in the world, and of my service to others, and of the nature of love. And I see more clearly what I have now that I did not have then.
I am both honored and filled with hope to begin the work that She and I will do together…to begin the work that She would teach me. I am also filled with the joy I find in knowing Her.
Hail Freyja-Vanadis, Lady of Light, Beauty, Fire, Passion, Joy, Magick and Love! Hail and Welcome!