At the top of the Tower, in the Temple of Light
Surrounded by air filled with color, rose and pale yellow like the sky at dawn in winter snowfall, a million shades of gold and green, then blue and lavender and violet, the indigo and purple of twilight in summer.
Clear sound dancing in ever-expanding spirals around me in all the colors of light.
Flooded with Light so brilliant it touches my retinas through closed lids and the veil tied around them.
He asks me if I know Him, and I do. He is my sons and my brothers and my childhood friend. He asks if I remember Wild Abandon, Adventure and Fun, Unbridled Passion and Joy, the Excitement of Places Unexplored. I do remember Him.
He asks me why I abandoned Him. My heart breaks. My fear has caused me to abandon this Beautiful One, this Cherished One.
She tells me to look into the mirror of my mind; She is the one I left behind. She asks if I am ready to risk all to step into the light, to embrace the child I was and shine like the Sun.
I am; this is why I have climbed this Tower, why I have taken this Journey so far from that place I have lived until now. I do not want to remain unseen anymore.
They challenge me to open, to abandon fear, to shine brighter and brighter. My heart opens and then my voice and I try to match the sound of the spiraling colors of light dancing around me. I am commanded to declare myself as light.
My mind searches for truth it can grasp hold of, and finds moments from recent memory, touch-stones of joy, evidence that Light is there within me. It also finds words from daily practice…
I am golden, glowing, shimmering, shining, sparkling stardust. I am Sunlight on the meadow and Moonlight on the path. I am a star shining in the night sky and the planets dancing in a crown of stars. I am the Goddess and the God, and I am me.
They ask why I still carry the chains of my shadows and I realize I can let them fall away. I am as filled with light as I am capable of being, and when they tell me to fly, I feel as if I might fly off the top of the tower and into the Sun itself, Icarus without wings, flight without the fall.
I am given keys, one to Shadows and one to Light, and am lead back down to the Kingdom, to the Earth that is my Home.
As day-light begins to grow and life begins to push upwards, striving to emerge from inside the ice, from beneath the earth, I have been spending time in the Temple of Light and will continue to do so. I have so much to explore and to remember and to practice. And yes, having fun takes practice, play takes practice, flying takes practice, as does filling yourself with light and sound and color…and light has so many colors. I am hoping to make a lasting change in the way I function. To rebuild my internal structures so light and shadow can exist and play together in balance within me.
May your life be blessed by the beauty of new light and new life and new magick.
May the shadows be a place of rest and comfort, may you enjoy the balance and the beauty of both.