Magick is not an immediate thing. Sometimes it works in ways that are completely sideways from what you expected. Your intention may be clear, and it does work if you are not muddled in your intention but, it seldom actually happens the way you think it will.
And sometimes, especially when the magick involves changing the way you exist, the way you function, your internal structures, and the way your magick works, it can take a long time and it can be unsettling, ungraceful, and even painful. But that does not mean that the magick is not working.
I have been feeling un-reconciled. The magick feels un-resolved. That is because it is. It is working itself out and that takes time. It is difficult to be patient. It is uncomfortable to be changing. But the journey is where we learn the lessons. The path is not the destination but, rather the experience we gain along the way.
Transformation, evolution, is a flowing river, always moving and shifting and becoming. Always un-reconciled. I am learning to sit and walk and work and love and live in the current. Blessed be.