Magick requires that all of our parts agree with our intent to use power. But it also requires that our will is fully engaged. The will to build power, the will to hold power and ultimately the will to release power, focused and with force towards our intent.
My mind might agree that a certain change is desirable. My body might be able to participate in the magick and even to do the physical work that is necessary to accomplish that change. My soul may agree that the change I seek is within its sense of purpose and integrity. My spirit may see the benefit to my evolution and to the world.
But without my heart being moved beyond simple desire, to feel that it MUST be, the power will never be released with enough focus and intent to accomplish what I hope.
I have finally discovered what engages my will. And this is the discovery that I have made, that my will is engaged by my Warrior’s Heart and that Heart is the Heart of the Mother.
I believe that all of the worlds and every species (Human and Fae and all of the others) must be whole and well in order for the Universe to thrive, but species are made up of individuals. The continued existence of individuals is essential to the evolution of each species. I have an uncompromising commitment to the sovereignty of the individual’s will as well as personal freedom, integrity and honor.
Most of my work has been finding balance between light and darkness, between order and chaos, because both honor and freedom are required for integrity.
I have a strong need for autonomy, independence as well as for nurturing and caring for others. I have compassion. I value relationships. I value Life. I value freedom. I value chaos. I value TRUTH above all else.
The things that I hold sacred, that I value most, those are the things that engage my will. Those situations that harm my loved ones, that raise my anger, that raise my fire, that move me, those are the keys to my power. My greatest power is engaged by my greatest anger.
That is not to say that I must protect my loved ones from all of the pain life might bring to them. To be honest, I do not believe that to be an ethical action. I believe that the pain we experience teaches us and helps us to grow and evolve; and to keep our loved ones safe from that is to cheat them of life itself.
But to see my beloveds HARMED…that is another matter. To see injustice done, enrages my Mother’s Heart and invokes the Warrior within me. That is when Power will be released.
That is when I am at my most powerful. When my Heart is filled to bursting.