Yesterday was my birthday. It was a beautiful day. I spent it with Pwca in my tree-house. I spent it organizing my possessions and my closets. I spent it re-setting my alters. I spent it gathering things to take to the thrift store. I spent it evaluating my goals and visions for my future. I spent it re-imagining my life. I spent it making plans.
In the past, those plans would present themselves as lists of things to do and accomplish over the next year and the next five years and the next ten years. This year it is not so much a list as it is a dream. There are a few specific events I wish to attend, one or two short term goals, one or two long term goals. But mostly it is a very sketchy outline of things I want to begin, things that I intend and hope for.
It allows for things unknown, unexpected, beyond my control. It assumes course corrections. It expects possibilities that I do not know. Much like the story I am writing, I have hints in my peripheral vision but I no longer need to plot out every step of my future path.
I hope to fall in love someday, but I have no idea about the who or the when or the how. My intent is to be open to allowing it to happen and my hope is that I will recognize it when it does. There is no planning for that nor, I suspect, for the most beautiful things that life can bring.
Without some detailed plan, without the “lists”, the only thing to do is to live, to keep the vision in my mind and allow it to change and evolve as I do the work in front of me. To live according to my intentions and to be open and ready as each lesson, as each opportunity presents itself. To do as my heart leads me and as my soul dictates in each moment along the way and to have faith that doing so will lead to the place the gods will at the time I need to get there.
This is a new way of looking at my future for me. It is not so likely to result in failure either, because the dream is allowed to evolve and is expected to change, there is no expectation of perfection, but rather more room for following intuition. I think it also allows for me to be more responsive to listening to shadow, and responding to it in a healthy manner rather than simply hiding or becoming the shadows themselves.
So this year I will follow the ever-shifting vision instead of the “plan”. Blessings of the Gods be upon me as I discover where it will lead me. Blessed Be.