I have been "head-blind" most of my life. I was not always so, but I made the visions go away when I was a small child. And I do not mean visual messages only. My most effective talent is auditory, in the form of language. I have never really been able to silence "the voices" completely. But my strongest talent is neither of these, nor is it the tactile or kinesthetic sense of knowing that I sometimes feel.
I have recently unlocked one of the boxes in my heart that was covered in cobwebs and dust. It had been locked up tight for so long that I had indeed almost forgotten that it ever existed. This is the task that my Patrons have been pushing me so hard to accomplish. I opened the box and discovered...empathy.
I have been working to unlock the boxes for months now and, as each one has been opened, more and more of my senses have returned to me. I am becoming less and less head-blind with each box. I have visions, I remember dreams, I can identify and engage with the various voices that I have heard my entire life. I am more aware of the "feelings" and the information that they convey, But most of all, my heart has become open and I can feel.
It has been awkward and painful. It has been frightening and has caused me to revisit many old demons and self-destructive behaviors to be sure that they will not serve but, I see again, I remember, I feel. I am no longer living the half-life of someone blind, deaf, and dumb. I am no longer one of the living dead.
May my Gods be pleased with what they have wrought.
Sounds like big work you're doing. May your discoveries be fruitful; may you experience the blessings of your newly-unburied talents.
ReplyDeleteSending so much love and light to you.