There is something growing, shifting, quickening inside me, a new life gestating inside my soul. It has no name as yet, no voice, no form, but it has a heartbeat, faint yet steady. Almost undetectable, growing from the quantum singularity that has frightened me for so long. I feel as though it has always been there, that there was a time when I knew it and was unafraid. I try to remember, I try to become aware of it, to listen with my heart. I try to be silent and wait for it to make itself known. Like a wild creature in the woods, not looking at it directly, being still, being quiet, waiting. It feels familiar and I know that I want it to awaken and be born within me. What that means exactly is yet a mystery but, I am no longer afraid. I will wait, still and silent, until the time for awareness manifests.
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